=DISAPPOINTED=
yes...that's how im feeling at this very moment. Yes, its's finally over... but im not at all happy. Blame it on my playfulness, blame it on my inattentiveness, blame it on my indecisiveness.... Come to think about it, i really dunno what i've been doing for the past entire 1 whole year. Is it really wrong of me to even start 2 yrs ago?.. Am i finding excuses for myself again?... damm.. i feel so useless...really so useless...
To be frank, this year's paper is neither tough nor easy...and i would say - manageable.. IF ....but... yar.. there's always an IF and a BUT.. dont wish to say anything else.. dont ask me to wait till results out then say... i noe myself.. i noe the answer oredi.. really damm sianz.. no mood to celebrate siaz... totally no mood... all i noe is... "See u next year" to expo... and not "See u at graduation"..
Enuff said.
3 good things that happened today
1) Nothing
2) Nothing
3) Nothing
aNd i sAy..
7:44 PM
Wasted another day...*yawns*
2 more days and its the final papers....yes... i mean papers coz i got 2 papers on that fateful day...one in the morning.. and one in the afternoon....haiz..... good and bad... good is becz i no nid to drag further torturing myself to "study"....bad becz i cant memorise everything in....argghh....
Wanted to memorise the theory part for msm but found myself stucked with msn instead.... yeah...although sound similiar....but too bad my paper dun test me on hw to use "msn"....Rite rite rite... after this i will straight away buried myself in my pile of notes.....
Well apart from this, i went to watch "Pirates of the Caribbean" last nite @ 0210am with Bee after he knock off. Used our "Blockbuster Tickets" which we bought previously @10 tixs for $80 plus 1 complimentary tix. *haha..quite a good offer, esp when blockbuster movies got $1 additional charge and furthermore its a weekend*
I didnt watch Part I and II...so no point of comparison...but its a long show... kinda farnie @ certain scenes e.g. propose at the weirdest timing.. (when they are fighting the enemies) hahaha... Best line of all: " My heart belongs totally to you, Will you safekeep it for me always?" *note that the heart is taken out and kept inside the chestbox* haha.... *so lomantic but impractical - if ur heart is really taken out, hw r u gonna survive? * hahaa.... Now, left with Blades of Glory to be watched b4 Ocean's Thirteen is out. heh heh...
Came across these few pointers worth pondering:
"When u r marrying, u r marrying all of the history of that person"
- agree. u cant expect to know the person u r marrying totally 100% b4 marriage even with many many years of friendship/courtship or watever ship. therefore, u r gonna accept the entire history of watever had happened to the person b4... what had past, cant be undone. - easier said, tougher to be done.
"u dont marry 1 person; u marry 3: the person u think they are; the person they are; and the person they are going to become as a result of being married to you"
-agree. Many a times, we think we noe our partners very well or rather we try to change them into someone whom we want them to be... thus alot of personal "assumptions" surface. Face it, neither you nor I can fully understand someone. Not even ur own family members. Thus when they dun turn out to be "wad/who" we want them to be...we become disappointed n started blaming.
tt's life i supp.... *Shrugs*
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3 good things that happened today:
1) Had a long chat with Buena - *yes! she's coming back for holiday soon!*
2) I didnt get mad when Bee said he wanna go Dragonfly tonite again
3) if i can understand what's DEA and complete my theory part for MSM today, guess tis would be the best thing that happened to me today. *haha*
aNd i sAy..
9:17 PM
Sick.
Yes, I've fallen sick...having terrible sore throat which hurts whenever i swallow my salivia...damm... dunno why also... suddenly lydat...haiz.. damm sway... sick during exam period. Hopefully it can get better...*kips drinking water*...
Well, suppose its school holiday season again.. all movies timing are like FULLY BOOKED!... kaoz.. cant watch a couple of shows...in the end, Bee and me decided to go down Dragonfly again to watch 'William Scorpion' together with Eliza. Haha. Guess what? Suddenly i become E's Cousin..LOL...*due to some reasons lahz* haha.... anyway, the crowd yesterday was crazy. SO FULL!!... haiz... in the end me and Bee gotta stand behind the band for almost 3 entire hrs....*leg pain siaz*... Conclusion: dont come during weekends again. Well, anyway, Bee applied for the membership yesterday n got a complimentary bottle of hennesy VSOP. *as if we can really drink*... LOL.. but sure no need to worry wan, coz JD will sure finish for him. haha..*fyi, JD is Bee's gd friend who can really drink*
Had Bak Ku Teh for 'brunch' this afternoon despite my sore throat. haha. Went to the famous store @ Rangoon Road. *check out the pics* We had a bowl of soup and rice each, a bowl of tang-O and you tiao to share. *yum*yum* Nice... hahaha.. eat until nothing's left.. Comparison between this store and those along Balestier: personally this is still better. haha... probably because this is the so called 'Zheng Zong Rou Gu Cha'.... :P
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Oh yar, usually u have to drink Chinese tea after your Bak Ku Teh - so called to disperse away the oil.. hahaha.. dunno lahz.. anyway, we skipped this today but ordered 'Jia Jia Liang Cha- w/o Sugar' instead..all thanks to my sore throat.. haha...
Before i forget, the 3 good things that happen to me today:
1) I'm alive-yeah!!! *haha*
2) Bak Ku Teh for brunch
3) Completed 2 topics for MSM - almost 50% ready (based on my 'picking of subjects lahz)
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My answer: (d)
Why?
Reason: its better to be blind, so you cant see things that you dun wan to see. its better to be deaf, so that you cant hear things that you dun wan to hear. its better to be mute, so that you cant say things you dun wan to say or dun meant to say. Sometimes, we do things w/o thinking the consequences- rather we do things on impulse. We tend to say hurtful things to the ones we love the most, we tend to neglect the ones we love the most but instead we treat a stranger better than our loved ones. If only all of us noes how to "see", "hear" and "speak" from our heart, how nice would the world be......
my 5cents worth...
aNd i sAy..
7:56 PM
..Attention all shopaholics, Great Singapore Sale starts today!!..
shop shop shop... seriously for most of us, i supp we dont have to wait till GSS then we start shopping for the entire year supply rite?.. haha... but still its a plus having the GSS ard where we can start being 'calculative' and save up the dollars and cents...Too bad, i can only start my GSS shopping spree next week after my exams....few more days to tahan....haiz...=(
Well anyway, last nite went Dragonfly @ St James with Bee...as to 'celebrate' the last day of his colleague-Joey. Together at the table were Cynthia n Eliza. Kinda weird joining them due to some personal reasons and furthermore im nt at all close to either of them.. anyway, the band was great though kinda drama in their performance... haha.. and the crowd...hmm.... well... i would say.. 'suddenly i feel so young around them'... hahaa.. coz if i were to turn my heads ard, i wldnt be surprise to see my dad there...*guess u get wad i mean*... LOL well, we didnt stay long.. actually kinda bored jz siting there... watching... cz usually i prefer to be on the "move" rather than jz siting down... esp since i cant drink last nite..as i gotta drive...
Nevertheless, its a gd experience for my 1st visit, wouldnt mind returning again *hopefully this tm round with a better crowd* haha...
had a boring day at hme... trying to finish reading the SG in the hot, sunny afternoon. Instead, i switched to YouTube and started watching the show "Corner With Love [转角遇到爱]" by Xiao Zhu and Da S. hahahaha farnie show... but then looking at hw the time strikes.... my fears started forming... as i still got a huge pile of notes untouched... damm... today is my last day assigned for ESAP.. starting from tml, i gotta start on MSM... arghh... it seems to be telling me "TIME IS NOT ENUFF and STOP WASTING TIME!"
PEriod.
Came across this while reading a magazine, kinda meaning and tot i wanna share it here:
- " Experience makes people far happier than things"
- "People who write down 3 good things that happen every day for a week are significantly happier than those who dont"
...hmm... it keeps me wondering... what's the 3 good things that happened to me today?
1) I'm still alive?
2) I'm 1 day older than yesterday?
3) I'm ...I'm....
sharks.. i cant seem to have anything good that had happened to me that kept me going.... am i not gonna be happy?.....
Question of the day:
..... Given you a choice, will you chose to be:
a) deaf
b) mute
c) blind
d) All of the above
e) None of the above
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aNd i sAy..
8:27 PM
Some of the pics i took there...
aNd i sAy..
3:48 PM
Farnie piCs... hahahhahaha....
aNd i sAy..
3:39 PM
Yeah..i'm finally back!...after mia-ing for so many days...all thanks to the lightning which struck the 'mio' at my hse, resulting in no internet access for the past weekend..=( (but luckily, im away at perhentian.. hahahaha)
well well, the exam on friday sucks.. i cant use the calculator that i brought to the exam hall..resulting in me gotta use 'mental sums'... arghh... aniwae i cant balance the BS also.. dunno where in the hell my brains go... cant complete the paper also... in the end.. i left the exam hall almost 3/4 heart-dead.. tink i have to enter the hall again next year for the same paper... damm...
aniwae rite after that, i rushed hm to meet Bee and did our final packing b4 heading to the bus station @ Lavender for our "Business Class" coach up to perhentian.. 12hrs long ride... the bus is cold..n making matters worse... i have not eaten anything for the entire day.... =( grrr...
after alighting at the jetty to catch the boat to Pulau Perhentian Besar, we finally reached our destination with our half-opened eyes - CocoHut. Everybody seems to noe wad to do next... changed into their swimwear attire... unpacked their bags, grab their gears and the next ting we noe, we were all in the boat to send us off to "Alu Alu Diving centre"- located at the other end of the island.
The Pros started their 1st dive while the Open waters waited there, looking aimlessly..dunno what to do.. haha.... finally we were told to watch a video while waiting for our instructor to be back.. After video one was over, we continued with video two... slowly the zzzz monster started his attack.. and almost all 3 of us watched with our almost shut eyes in the humid afternoon...we continued with our video 3 after lunch and started our 1st confined training in the later part of the afternoon.
1st training was fun!.. haha.. well we do looked farnie with our wetsuits on and stuff... and swimming with that fins on is no joke.. haha.. tough for me!.. i cant balance.. n s a result.. hurt my knee cap n ankle...*pain* we practice scuba diving and swimming b4 we call it a day..
the skies at nite with stars twinkling is fantastic! Great scenery companied with Juan and our earlier jokes of the day... hahah....we were real jokers... *hey! trying to laugh underwater is no joke k... hahhahaha it takes lotsa skills n practise* aniwae we ended the nite early as there's a early morning dive the v.next day...
2nd day started bright and sunny..but me n Bee got no breakfast coz we woke up late.. once we reached alu alu, farok took us straight into introducing our gears and started our lessons with assembling and dissembling our equipments. after we are ready, he took us out to a nearby area for our 2nd practice dive and 1st open dive. i tell u..the fishes really scared the hell outta me when i first saw them!!.. kaoz..i retreat almost immediately when i saw a school of fishes swimming rite in front of my eyes!.. hhaahaa.. Juan couldnt stop laughing becz of this.. as i slowly gt used to it... i begin to enjoy the scenery in front of me...- someting which i dun get to see normally unless except im standing rite in front of an aquarium- blocked by a layer of glass... boy.. im getting real excited as i get to see more marine life...
Back at Alu Alu, farok told us that we were not able to complete our full course due to time constraint- as we were all leaving the very next day afternoon. he suggested that he will certified us as Scuba Divers meanwhile and we were to go back again to complete the entire course to attain the full Open Water Diving. (Difference is SD can only dive up to 12m deep whereas OW can dive up to 18m deep) Though kinda sad by the decision of Farok's, but only he noes best at our standards and progress and what is best for us..so we all agree that we will go back soon to complete our coz (hopefully in sept)..
On our 3rd day, we set off to D Lagoon together with the Pros and took some group fotos underwater (which doesnt turn out clear)..before heading back to Alu to be certified as SD by Farok. haha... now i got my own Log bOok... next time mz learn to draw fishes n marine life.. hahahhaa..oh yar, i got my SD card also!.. hehheee...
V.excited n happy with this entire trip... really opened my eyes to marine life.. - someting which i never though i would like it tt much..haha... but still i got my fears... haahaa... tink i need to gain more water confidence n knowledge with the handling of the equipment first...
Back in Singapore, Bee n me went to our favourite dinner hangout @ Ting Yuan Steamboat.. hahaha we had a great feast! lucky there's seats when we got there as it was full hse! Oh yar and at nite, we watched " Just Follow Law" by Gurmit Singh and Fann Wong. it was a farnie show.. haha...
Overall, really enjoyed my weekend over at perhentian.. though we also must "study" for our Open Water.. haha... the group was fun... my buddy was hilarious.. our instructor was good, the shakes were great!.. yummy!
Will try to upload the fotos...once its ready.. though i didnt take much coz the camera is not with me most of the time... hehehe...
Meanwhile, back to my books....*sigh*
aNd i sAy..
2:17 PM
Balance..Balance..Balance....
2 more days to doomsday... but hell.. i cant balance for goodness sake! *wonder hw am i gonna take my paper on friday...* =(
still struggling to cramp as much infor from the study guide (as what the UOL lecturers always recommend us to read) in my Big head but small brain....*tough* ... seriously... if u ask me what have i read... i tell u... i cant remb a single shit... hahaha think becoz of the time constraint.. im practically "scanning" thr the words rather than understanding... just hope my "super-memory" dun fail me on the BIG day....*which it normally will*...*shruggs*
So many things to be done... so little time left.... i haven upload the pics i took the other day...i haven pack my bag for my trip *which i noe i shldnt be thinkg of that at this very moment!!*.... i haven memorise all the formulaes required to calculate the key ratios.. i haven memorise all the definitions and theories for Section A... i haven master the 'art-of-balancing' * which is also the most impt part of the entire paper - Section B.... damm..... oh heaven, please tell me what should i do now!!... grrrrr
now my mind is filled with anything and everything except EXAMS.. think tis time i really have to hug "his" leg tighter liaoz... coz "Ling Shi Bao Fuo Jiao" mahz... haha crap..
anyway i cant seem to upload any pics.. blogger seem to have error whenever i tried to access... sianz.. jz too bad.... shall upload once its ok..
haiz.. time to head back to my boring study guide liaoz... still got one..two...three...damm..six more long-n-dont-understand chapts to go...before the clock strikes twelve...an't much time left...arrrghh....
aNd i sAy..
6:27 PM
CouNtinG dOwn....thrEe mOre dayS to Official OpeNinG of WWI - my exaMs: 1st paPeR...PrinCiples of AccountinG
aCcOunTinG - is nV my fOrtE... just a simple TB is enough to get me stucked for the entire afternoon... tml i shall practise the 'art of balancing' - BS and P/L statements.. wish me luck.. :(
*unless any kind souls can help me out in this...*
Friday, 18 May 2007 - a day to make me look forward; yet dread that it will nv come so fast....
Right after my paper, I'll have to rush down to Lavender Bus Station to catch the coach for another 'mind-wrecking' trip all the way up to 'Perhendian'...foR my "relaxing weekend at the beach"
Yes, finally i'm going to take my OWL....been waiting long for this moment... but then again... mixed feelings... coz i'm realli scared of water!! esp.. after much dis-encouragement from my mama that I'm supp to avoid "water" this year....hmmm.....*kip my fingers crossed*
Hopefully its a fruitful trip for me to really enjoy myself before i'm back again for WWII.... =P
Meanwhile..continue counting down....
aNd i sAy..
2:44 AM
=EvEryDay wiTh U iS LikE a FaiRy TaLe=
"i'll never let u go, if u promise not to fade away...."
aNd i sAy..
1:18 AM
CheEriOs to DD...taNks fOr aLL thE heLP!... tink thE credit line must also include ur name liaoz... hahaha.....
eH why iM not linked-up to u????......Hmmmmmmm
aNd i sAy..
2:15 AM
everything is set-up nicely.
aNd i sAy..
1:07 AM